I have. I have had the most confusing & bewildering time this past year. I thought I had clear direction to move ahead and yet when I did, the doors were closed? It just didn't make any sense. Either I was misunderstanding God's OK.... or maybe .... was He playing some kind of cruel joke on me?
I'm just starting a study in the book of Job and read this as part of the introduction. It's from Search the Scriptures*:
"The principal agony lies, not in his (Job) diseased body, but in his bewildered mind. His cry to God to explain Himself is maintained with growing impatience....
At last his desire is granted. God speaks to him, but very differently from his expectation. The sole divine answer consists of a vision of God's great power. Job, seeing his small concerns against this vast back-cloth, is humbled and silenced. Then God commends him, and he is restored."
It has taken a long time, but I think I'm OK with those closed doors. It has forced me to consider other paths... other directions... and in that I realize that God's OK was there, but maybe, just maybe, it was me who misunderstood... that this was God's way of re-directing my thoughts.... of knocking on a different door that I will find open....
* Search the Scriptures (1974, InterVarsity Press)
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You find the best books and quotes! Knowing what we are to do, where we are to serve, what God is doing in our lives pales in comparison to knowing God. And I know that you are secure there...rest in Him, girlfriend! I'll be praying over your new endeavors.
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